{ breakdown }

Breakdown.  That's what this weekend has brought on.

Emotionally.  Physically.  Mentally.  

We were supposed to go to the lake house this weekend.  We had planned it for months.  We were supposed to have a fun, relaxing weekend.  Being together.

And we didn't.

And I miss him.  And want to talk with him.  And I want our relationship back.

But that's not what the Lord wants right now.

But it's hard.  So hard.  The pain.  The aching.  The wanting to be known, and cared for, by someone.  All the memories we had.  What were they?  Because they meant something to me.

And now, they're gone.

So everything came crashing down again this weekend.  But it's ok.  I'll learn to be ok.

But it's hard.