{ tired }

Emotionally.  Physically.  Spiritually.

So tired of the ache, of the pain deep down.  Tired of having my eyes always feel heavy because they're weighed down with tears.  Tears that sometimes quietly come, but never fully.  Which means they're always heavy.

Tired of feeling this way.

Feeling alone.  Misunderstood.   Feeling just down, and left by God, honestly.  I feel like He's left me alone.  Alone to figure out how to pick myself up.  I'm crying out to Him; begging Him for light, comfort, the knowledge of His presence.  Yet I don't feel it.  I feel like I'm in a dark tunnel with no light.  And I'm tired of trying to explain it to everyone..... yet not being able to share it to the one person that my heart aches to talk to.

Tired of not being able to let him go.  Wanting to, truly.  But I can't help but think of him all the time.  And wanting to be together again.