{ being still }

"Be still and know that I am God."

This verse has been running through my head the past two days.  

Trying to slow down.  Slow down all the feelings drowning me.  Slow down the business of life/work/my own thoughts.  Slow down on burying my depression.  Just slow down and remember who is God.  To be able to have a clear mind to hear His voice.  So process all the feelings I've been having with a clear mind.  A clear heart.  A heart that is focused on where it should be.

A heart that is willing to yield my desires, hopes, dreams, to Him.

Sometimes you have to force yourself to refocus yourself.  Truly, deeply refocus.  Because it's easy to say "Thy will be done" and another thing to have a quiet heart willing to receive His will.

I'm to good a trying to drown out my thoughts by constantly being busy- mentally, physically, anyway that I can- and when I do, I find myself burnt out, and unsure about everything.

But it's then that I remind myself that no matter what trial/pain I'm going through, I'll only get true peace, answers, hope, anything, when I am trying to rest and be still in Him.

I've been trying, and I will try daily to rest and be still.  Sometimes it's easier than others.  But I'll only ever learn/grow/produce fruit of my faith if I'm trying to be still.  Not just saying it, crying it, praying it as I frantically rush through my day.  No.  I have to truly, deeply be still.

"Be still and KNOW that I am God."