{ wanting }

Wanting to be with him.  Talk with him.  Have him tell me everything is going to be ok.

Wanting that happy, joyful, excited hope for the future.

Wanting him now more than ever.

I'm sure.  This is what I want.

I want to do life with him.  Travel.  Have kids.  Go get drinks.  Hold hands.  Be the proud girl of a deputy.  Proudly support the thin blue line.  Support him.  Grow spiritually together.  Change the world.

With him.  I want to do it with him.  

Not because I don't like being single.  That I'm disappointed to be 23 and not married.  That I doubt myself.  That I'm insecure.

No.

It's because his smile makes me giddy, his arms feel safe, his laugh makes me happy, his music has become mine, his calm, down to earth approach to life makes me confident, his caring spirit makes me feel special, his jokes makes me laugh,

He feels like home.

That's what I want.